For Nolan
Almost 5 months since you got your wings
your death has changed so many things
Your mother's heart went with you that day
and the hopes for her son were ripped away.
Your brother and sister miss you I know
It's hard to understand why you had to go.
We all want you back, myself included,
but from this world you stay secluded.
There is no cure for this kind of pain
but friendship and strength we hope to gain
But through this all I have come to find
a friend who is true, the very best kind.
So for this Nolan I thank you for your gift to me
The friendship in your Mommy is treasured to me.
Go play with my Reid in your heavenly place
and shine down on your family with all your grace.

Dedicated to 
Nolan Allen Merinsky
July 27th 2006

Will it ever get better, I ask myself daily...

When will the pain subside...

I think of you so often...

you've watched me as I've cried...

I cannot count the minutes...

I cannot count the tears...

I cannot count the yearning hours...

I've craved to hold you near...

I listen for your cries,

as I lay to sleep at night...

In hopes to hear your sweetness,

So I can hold you tight.

You are not here with me...

I live without my heart...

you've gone somewhere without me...

and it tore my life apart...


By Sara Scheid

November 30th 2006

We Thank You...

For all the cards that were sent
and the money that was spent...
For the food that was made
and the visits that were paid...
We Thank You

For the kind words that were said
and for the tears that were shed...
For those who held us while we cried
and took me out when I wanted to hide...
We Thank You

For all of the toys and all of the bibs
For all of the clothes and the beautiful crib...
For all of the rattles and for the snugglies
For the baby albums, the Pampers and Huggies...
We Thank You

For those who sent flowers
and held baby showers...
For watching for my kids
for hours upon hours...
We Thank You

To explain it clearly, the hardest part
Is living each day with a broken heart...
But somehow I know we'll make it through
All beacuse of good friends like you..

For all who were there
in our time of need
In helping us grieve
the loss of our Reid.

This poem is dedicated to you...


Since I cannot share gifts with my angel this year
I will share my angel with you...
Please hang this angel in your home this holiday season.
We have been blessed with an angel and wish to share him with you.

Sara & Ken
Myles & Morgan

Unanswered remain the questions to my grief
Relentless is my pain and there is no relief..
I practise my fake smile in my mirror everyday
you ask me how I am and I will say "ok"
I have learned to hide my grief, to carry on with life
when inside I am aching, a broken mother and pain filled wife...
I do not want to bring you down with the stories of my child
but if you ask to talk about him it heals me for a while
He was really here, a part of this place that we all live
He just didn't get to meet you or his love to you he'd give
He had a dimple on his chin and a little button nose
He had all ten fingers, I counted, and all ten little toes
I held him as close as I could and prayed with all my might
that all this had not happened, it was just a dream that night.
but the coldness of his lips and the color of his skin
brought me back to reality and surged the pain within...
I feel there is no ending to a poem such as this
for the pain will never ease, I just have to live with it.

By Sara Scheid
December 6th 2006

In loving memory of
Reid James McMurter

 

I cried last night, I missed you so
My tears fell like rain
I cried last night, my heart was aching
my arms left empty again


I cried last night, like many nights before
Knees weak, falling to the floor
I cried last night, still missing you so
Each day more than before

I cried last night, sometimes silent tears
streaking down my face
I cried last night, my eyes left swollen
For the comming years


In loving memory of
Reid James McMurter
Love Mommy

Written By Sara Scheid
Feb. 26th 2007